When I went back to work yesterday, it felt like going back for the first time in a new year. I think because my first few weeks have been so bitty, and really it’s all been very weird with the anticipation of funeral and building work.

Sunday I went back to church for the first time in about 2 months. In the afternoon, my Mum thought I looked ill (is this what church services do to me?!) so spent the afternoon snoozing and watching Without A Trace. Muffins and smoothie were made and I felt ready for the new week.

My alarm clock was the sound of a skip and builders arriving and knocking down the conservatory. Building work has indeed begun!

It has to be said that the difference drinking water, back on my fruit smoothies and back in the gym with my friend each week is huge! I feel so much better for it, and I’m pretty sure the days slowly getting longer is helping a lot too. It’s also nice to be in work with the knowledge that (God willing) I’m there every week for a while so I can get some momentum back into my work and planning. I feel like things are moving forward…it’s like I’ve been sitting on a train that isn’t moving out of the station for the last 4 years, and now…the train maybe finally leaving to reach it’s destination!

Here’s hoping anyway.

Meanwhile, I’ve learned that NCIS: Los Angeles is my American TV Drama of choice during periods of grief or high family drama. My life is so boring compared to the undercover special ops team in LA who get shot at about 50 times a week fighting terrorists all the time. And I doubt I’ll ever have a life so ornate or colourful as Henrietta Lange‘s… (I do love Hetty…!)